Letters

So many years a struggle to get through to you. Battle within. A voice no more. Gone.

Can’t take the words you spew, cant take it no more. I pretend, I protect, I excuse….. I survive…..barely.

Shame, humiliation, all for love—– or so I thought.

Boundaries, what are they?’

Let it go, let me be.

Sometimes lessons are learned the hard way till you finally give in and move on.

Forgive? Sure, no problem. However, unfortunately I can not forget.

How could I ? A life changing series of events are imprints on my soul like a permanent tattoo. My only hope would be amnesia.

Something so awful could be my final peace.

 

* What do you think is going on with the writer? A sad reality for many victims of abuse.

Live, love, honor and laugh out loud! Prioritize you.

About Cassandra Pavolic

As a retired performer for 25 years transitioning careers has been difficult. I truly enjoyed my career as an aerialist performer. I was fortunate enough to see the world, traveled many places and met people from all cultures. I learned a tremendous amount about life and people during my years traveling than I would in a school setting. The one thing I took away from being on the road is that no matter what ethnic background you are, we are all so similar. A smile is a smile in every language (happiness or contentment). Expressions of all emotions have the same meaning around the world. For this reason we are similar, and I somehow find that comforting. I'm now 50! It's hard to believe I'm fifty already! I reflect on my accomplishments as well as my failures up to date. Both are irrelevant to what I value most. I value people and relationships. I value my deity, it is the number one thing that keeps me stable. Being true to myself is a portion of my "food" in regards to my decision making. When I steer away from being my true self I am disappointed. Exercise, taking walks, and being still are another source of "food" in my life. I like to be still, listen and observe all things. I have been this type of person since a young child. Perhaps one of the reasons why I take an interest in Personality Psychology and my recent studies human behavior. I hold an Associates degree in Music/Theater/Dance from Dean College in MA. I quickly realized I wanted to perform, therefore my journey began immediately after graduating from Dean. I have been a Licensed Massage Therapist, as well as a Certified Personal Trainer. I am curious, I am persistent and I am passionate. I'm on a mission to be a better person, to help those who want to help themselves, and to share my thoughts, opinions, experiences to anyone who gives a damn. All in hoping that what I have to offer will change lives as you learn to keep your priorities in order. And so I started prioritize you.
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